Bride of the Rain

Statistic

This is my first time menghadapi paper statistic... sik tauklah apa akan aku jawab lepas tok... what ever it is.. i need prayer from all of you.. wish me luck

Cita is just around the corner.. Officially will launch on 12 of July 2011 at Hilton on 9 am.

But trust me it is not only the Cita that i need to settle, i still need to look for minute to Penang that still make my boss unsatisfied, as well as the ticket from Penang that still not booking yet make everyday that past with my adrenaline rush.

It is about my job.

Telling about my part time job, this weekend we had an appointment with client at 9 a.m. The venue still not confirm yet. And kak zu's baju kurung still not done with the beads. Ya Allah give me strength to do all this. And my sis wedding card still in progress. 1200 copies! A lot of card!

And my studies, a lot of assignment that need me to look at it one by one. Fuh!

Its feel don't have enough time to breath. But by hook or by crock i still need to celebrate my Mom birthday this week on 10 of July 2011. Luckily it is on Sunday. So i will make sure this Sunday is free for them. Hopefully. Amin..

Tipikal mak

Last weekend aku nangga cgek cita tok... Dalil cinta (tv3 kol9-11 mlm) so hero nya fahrin n heroin nya armani. Movie tok tentang pasangan yang kawen mudak, armani dlm cita tok nya gik study tp fahrin dah kerja lah... kerja jadi mekanik. Hidup biasa2 jak couple biasa2 jak... Tapi armani dalam citok nang kurang ajar lah, dengan husband pun nak berteriak2, kelaie dgn mak mentua... nok best nya mala tapau makanan nya... pa tek pasangan sempoi... Aduhai sempoi x sempoi tapi mun aku dan seboleh2-boleh nya mun aku ada keluarga kelak biarlah aku jadi tipikal mak... Nok masak pagi2 lepas jak solat subuh terus masak... sapa x solat subuh.. ku sut2 palak cdak (tp x lah smpei mendera) polah bekal k cdak... makanan d kantin jual d kantin sekolah bukan nya bersih glak pun, macam lah aku tok x pernah beli makanan d kantin sekolah... *sebab yalah reason nya dari dolk smpe nektok tok suka embak bekal nok mak ku masak, nyaman cgek hal, kebersihan terjamin*

Nek tok kan cuti musim sekolah so banyak lah undangan perkahwinan, dan hujung minggu tok pun aku dengan kawan ku (erol) ambik gambar nikah kawan ku.. so sesiapa yang memerlukan khidmat photography so call jak aku.. bah balit cita tek... aku tok paling suka pegi pengilan org nikah kawen.. bukan apa tang kacak n hensem jak ktk org atas pelamin ya... muka berseri2, dari jaoh, dari bermeter-meter dah dapat nangga seri muka... Pa tek pengantin baru... tapi ktk org kenak ingat lah... perkahwinan ya bukan atas pelamin jak... nak pa nok penting sekali selepas kawen ya... ingat, hidup berdua tok bukan senang. gik kita ngan gerek nok x jumpa hari2 gik boleh kelaie nak pa gik jumpa hari2... tang ada jak salah silap jangan mudah glak melatah... sebenarnya pesanan tok ku madah dengan sorang kawan ku yang bising2 madah nak kawen... nang nya dah madah kira sanggup susah senang jadi isterilah... dah sanggup melayan perange suami... dah sanggup bangun tengah malm nyusu anak *insyaAllah* sebab apa ku madah kedak ya... ktk org ya sll kelaie.. benda kecik nak jadi hal. ingat ktk org... perkahwinan lebih dari sekadar cinta dan kaseh sayang... sekali dah kawen jangn berpatah arah agik... ingat! suami ya first... selepas Tuhan, nabi dan agama lah..

ku sebenarnya berimpian mok jadi tipikal mak.. dok rumah.. jaga anak.. p ku mok kerja jwak lah.. kerja dari rumah.. sebab ya lah sebenarnya aku berusaha polah bizness ku sekarang... ku mok memajukan nya.. sebab nya bukan sekadar bisness biasa... tapi cya lah kaseh dan sayang ku bah... tok alu pun website... nek tok aku share dengan sesorang lah [babyz00m] tapi aku cuma mampu berusaha tapi mun dah takdir nya aku nang kerja tok smpe mati.. apa boleh buat nak? dan aku harap suami ku kelak mampu tanggung aku even aku dah x kerja gik kelak lah.. gik mampu makan n minum, ada rumah, selesa nak beribadah semua2 yalah...

udah lah eh.. kelak kawan ku ya madah ku ngerepak.. nya sll madah ku tok suka ngerepak nya.. nie lah ku tok x ngerepak.. nya ya ngereco benda nok kecik2 jak... maka coba fokus sikit dlm hidup... ada benda yang lebih besar nok kita perlu capai dalam hidup tok.. benda kecik2 ya ala biasalah... k nambah perisa dalm hidup jak ya... bah.. ku mok balit lok mok ambik kakak ku d feri tok... chow cincau susu wow!

laughinggggggggggggggg

hahaha lamak dah sik menulis dengan mood dan keadaan yang tenang seperti sekarang.. setelah membaca blog silah a.k.a IN maka mood aku bertukar ceria... huhuhu lamak sik jumpa rindu gik asa nya...

btw last week sebenarnya kak zu ada negor aku nya madah blog aku nek tok kedak serius ajak2... dah x da gik benda bodo2 di tulis ku dalam blog kedak dolok.. yalah polah aku terpike sebenarnya.. aok ow! lamak dah aku sik nulis benda bodo2 mcm dolok. hahaha semua jak benda nak serius ajak2... ya menyebabkan aku tertanya-tanya aku tok bena-bena happy seperti yang orang selalu tangga ka ataupun aku tok buat-buat happy?

ermmm tggl cgek paper gik eh then hbslh aku semeter ke tiga aku.. stkt tok aku rasa aku berpuas ht dgn apa yg aku jwn even sesungguhnya akn ada bnda mencrt yg aku tulis tp apa pun at least aku jwb hbs cerita.. jwbn subjektif memang ssh nk kata slh atau btl seba c da formula yg blh d pake utk mjwb nya.. apa aku tauk byk ko plh slh dgn cozmate ku thn tok n lect so d ksmptn tok aku mintak maaflh byk2lh nama gik manusia tp memang aku rasa sem tok plg susah aku rasa aku rasa mcm sampe mls mok ambk kira agik

Kenak semua benda macam susah?

Blur

Fed up

Sakit ati

Jiwa kacau

Malas

Stress

Depress

kenak bah semua tok ku rasa? apa dah hilang ka sabar di hati mok menempuh semua benda yang di luar kawalan, when heyward told me yesterday that i'm the one who make things complicated. ermm may be ada benarnya. tapi sesungguhnya hidup tok susah tanpa internet. Jarang nak menulis, jarang nak meluah perasaan banyak benda ku ngerepak dengan nya last2 mestilah nya fed up nak? kau tok efa bena jwak.. dah namanya hidup sik kan nak mala jak ngalah.. rileklah.. mun dah d takdirkan nak repeat paper gne2 ko polah pun kau akan repeat jwak.. terimak lah dengan hari terbukak. ya lah masa dolok gila gilak nak ngambik sampei 6 igek subjek.. last2 sapa yang kondem mun sik kau pun? SERVE ME! ermm tapi apa2 pun aku polah jak lah apa yang aku dapat.. aku baca apa yang aku mampu.. memang sik akan pernah nya aku dapat nak habiskan selebes ya bah.. boh nak berangan. apa yang penting is blaja bab nok penting ajak..

ermm btw... aku harap lah yang maxis dapat d pake d kawasan perumahan aku ya. Cdak tok eh mala jak promote sal broadband tapi coverage xda nang hampeh na jwak eh.. tauk x cdak zaman tok mun x da internet susah? nak leput kali nak?

ermmm by the way efa GOOD LUCK! bersedia untuuk berperang esok!!!

Cuti

Termasuk hari tok.. dah 3 hari aku cuti sakit time kerja.. termasuk esok hari keempat aku cuti. Setelah lebih sepuluh tahun aku sik sakit mata tok baruk aku sakit mata agik.. huhu dalam mata rasa mcm nak bisak jak... tapi apa pun aku bersyukur at least aku tok normal agik.. merasa jwak sakit mata kedak org lain.. Bukanlah bermakna aku tok mintak sakit Nauzubillah.. tapi kadang2 sakit tok mengingatkan kita yang kita tok maseh normal gik sebab ada hari nya kita sihat, adakalanya kita tok sakit..

BERTUKAR

time to change!!!

Tajuk blog tok pun kedak bersemangat... lembab semacam jak bunyi nya... memandangkan internet di rumah tok lebih lambat dari siput berjalan so terpaksalah aku hold dolok mok mentransform kan blog tok.

tok pun aku pinjam broadband izzah untuk main internet mun x kah memang berbulan aku x menulis.. x kisah lah xda facebook... tapi bukan blog.. tok lah diari bergerak aku.

Btw, sebelum aku tido malam tok aku mok berdoa supaya orang-orang yang menganiaya aku hari tok, yang mengumpat aku hati tok, yang dengki dengan aku hari, pendek kata yang palat aku hari tok tanpa reason yang munasabah aku doakan kitak orang semoga insaf lah.. bulan posa dah tinggal sehari jak gik tok... mudah-mudahan ktk org semua di berikan petunjuk pada bulan baik ya kelak lah.. Amin...

29 things I learned about life and love

1. The more you chase, the more they run. Work on attracting (pulling) people to you instead of chasing after them.

2. Love is not about “finding your other half”. We’ve been misled to think that love is like addition… 1/2 + 1/2 = 1. No, no, no… Love is more like multiplication… so 1/2 * 1/2 = only 1/4. We need to work on ourselves, so we become whole on our own (do not need or rely on someone else to complete us)… when we do that, we begin to attract other individuals that are whole as well… Realize that 1 * 1 = 1

3. If you never ask, the answer is always no.

4. Money is just a means to an end. Sure, it’ll be great to have a lot of money but what we really want isn’t the money in and of itself… what we want is what that money can do for us… what it brings us.

5. There’s no use trying to logically convince a woman. You can’t change a girl’s mind unless you change her mood first. Wait… that works for everyone…

6. Besides “I love you”, the next best thing you can say to someone is “Thank you”. People love to feel appreciated. Why deny them such a wonderful feeling, by withholding two words that don’t cost you anything?

7. Don’t cut off your nose to spite your face… and don’t grab your crotch in public. You’re not Michael Jackson.

8. Facebook isn’t real life. Real life is when you go out and do crazy stuff. Facebook just reminds you of all those crazy stuff you did.

9. If someone slapped you, you get hurt once. If you keep replaying that movie of the person slapping you in your mind over and over again, you get hurt a thousand times. So when is NOW a good time to stop slapping yourself and start letting go?

10. Nobody likes doormats. Nobody respects doormats. Stop agreeing with everything I say. Have an opinion. It’s attractive.

11. Stop looking outwards for external things, people and events to fill up your inner void. You’re looking in the wrong place. The answer you seek is INSIDE.

12. The iphone is great… it can help you do a lot of things. But it can’t give you a hug when you’re feeling down. So stop fiddling with your iphone when you’re out with your friends… unless you’re coding the “hug me when everyone’s gone” application.

13. Spend time with your family. Take your parents out for meals and movies. It doesn’t cost a lot… but it makes them really happy.

14. When you stay EMO, you’re telling the right guy/girl who comes along: “I’m not ready for your love because I’m still upset about what the wrong guy/girl did… run along now… I’ll catch up with you in 20 years tops!”

15. Nobody owes you anything. I repeat… nobody owes you anything!

16. In 5 years, you’ll look back and laugh at the biggest problem you’re having now.

17. If you aren’t happy single, you won’t be happy in a relationship. Another person only magnifies your problems. You’ll project all your unhappiness on the poor guy/girl and he/she is going to leave you and you’ll reaffirm to yourself that you suck. Happiness doesn’t start with someone else… it starts with you.

18. Love yourself first. How can you hate yourself and expect someone else to love you?

19. Stop reading about other people’s success stories and idolizing them and start doing what it is you are supposed to do to create your own success story so others can read about and idolize you.

20. Figure out what you want… otherwise others will just string you along to accomplish what THEY want.

21. Once in a while, do the opposite of what that little voice inside is telling you. See what happens.

22. The media is full of propaganda. Don’t believe everything you come across in the newspapers and on tv.

23. There is no magic pill.

24. Nobody’s zooming in on all your perceived flaws and judging you because of that except yourself. Seriously, most people won’t notice your beer belly until you tell them about it.

25. Don’t always try to be the hero. You can’t help someone who’s not willing to help themselves.

26. Most people equate attention to love… that’s why we’re always doing silly things to get attention.

27. Don’t be so afraid of death that you stop living and going after your dreams

28. We are so used to taking things for granted. Stop, just for a second, to admire the beauty that surrounds you.

29. At the end of the day, no matter what you do, you’ll have critics. Just do what you love and what makes you happy, and be thankful there are people who care enough to talk about you.

by Yee Shun-Jian

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Hari tok mek memang x da mood mok turun kerja.. huhuhu semua benda rasa x betol.. xtauk lah.. kmk yang bermasalah atau memang keadaan yang ada masalah sekarang hehehe... rasa stress semacam jak! mcm lah x da jalan penyelesaiaan ceh! emo! x tauk lah pahal.

Updated!

Saya bosan.

i'm Quit

i talk to my parents about my job n study. i told them i want to get leave for study but the problem is i will not have salaries. But seems my parents said we will get financial problem after that, cause dad need pays 2 cars, 1 motorcycle and mom need to pay our house. But i said that i don't feel satisfied cause my sis is working now. How come she could not help them. She always said that she is a good daughter in front of me by giving my parents money every month. Nahhhh pa gik.. show to us now. I feel that it is totally not fair for me. I need to work and need to go to class while i am only 22nd years old. i got job already. It is not i am quit from my job it just i on leave for study. I want to do well in my study. i love to study. i do not want to go to work. i hate to work. i feel really stress. But then when i think it twice, may be this is what Allah plan for me. Something that i do not plan.

I really want to excel in my study. But honestly i could not give total effort to my study while i am working. I do not why. May be because i live alone. Everything i have to do by my own.

Ya Allah, please help me. Please give me guidance. If this is the BEST way for me, pleas give me strength to do all this. Amin..

Pretending

Selalu nya, manusia akan show off benda yang sebaliknya

Sebagai contoh:

Pasangan kekasih tok, mala jak sama. Kedak belangkas. Sine-sine pg pun sama jak p last last break jwak. Sebab apa. Sebab nya mok bulak dengan dirik sidak ya pun yang cdak ya happy.

Sik pun nya buat-buat happy. tapi sebenarnya dalam hati nya, nya sik happy pun.

Apa lah kesimpulan atas contoh pendek di atas ya tek?

Kesimpulannya, banyak orang yang berpura-pura dalam dunia tok. Eksen-eksen mok nunjuk dengan org p sebenarnya cdak nya hipokrit. sik jujur dengan dirik cdak ya pun. Pahal aku emo? sebab banyak org di sekeliiling aku nek tok macam ya.

Sebab apa cdak mok polah mcm ya sebab cdak takut menghadapi kenyataan. Ya lah sebab nya.

Penilaian

Sesi meluah perasaan yang entah ke berapa kali. Lamak dah ku nyimpan tok. Mala jak sik terluah.

Kenak manusia suka pg judge kita suka ati mak bapak cdak jak? Apa nya pike apa? Cdak ya bagus glak lah? Macam aku kaco hidup cdak. Tapi nang selalu nya lah, orang yang sik kaco hidup orang, orang mesti suka kaco hidup nya. Pa tek cdak nya ya sik puas hati dengan hidup orang lain yang bahagia. Pa jak lah. Emo aku tok eh.

Aku hairan bah, sapa cdak nak menilai orang ya sik bagus?

Kak ya ada gik sesetengah manusia tok yang sik ada pendirian. Tok cgek gik masalah. Kak ya nak, ada gik jumpa orang laki kerja nya main-main kan hati ompuan ajak ajak. Ish ish ish

Give yourself permission

Give yourself permission to laugh
Give yourself permission to cry
Give yourself permission to smile
Give yourself permission to fail
Give yourself permission to succeed
Give yourself permission to play
Give yourself permission to have fun
Give yourself permission to love
Give yourself permission to do whatever you want
Give yourself permission to let go
Give yourself permission to meet wonderful people
Give yourself permission to grow
Give yourself permission to fly
Give yourself permission to dream
Give yourself permission to create the life you’ve always wanted
Give yourself permission to unleash your potential
Give yourself permission to find out more about that guy/girl
Give yourself permission to stop beating yourself up
Give yourself permission to believe
Give yourself permission to move on
Give yourself permission to sing
Give yourself permission to dance
Give yourself permission to live
Give yourself permission to be in the moment
Give yourself permission to adapt
Give yourself permission to relax
Give yourself permission to say what you really mean
Give yourself permission to do something new
Give yourself permission to just be
Give yourself permission

S***

i am totally feel s*** today... Aduhai fever... Flu + headache make me feel mcm nak pengsan d ofis tok...

Lepas jak balit dari BTN, the next day on Selasa terus got fever. it become worse during night. Got sore throat + headache + flu + asthma ya ampun.. kedak apa jak. And become worse day by day. Bitter n bitter n bitter... I am doing nothing at home accept sleeping the whole day, ate medic then terus beradu x sedar dunia.

Kol 3 pagi, my group is No 3 i am a leader for group kak ya tek apa lah kaitan nya nak d krepak aku tok?

FUH! i felt my head kedak ada seton batu jak d atas nya.. Whole my body rasa letih jak... 1.30 arrived kat klinik samarahan. AM not pm. So aku just dapat tido around 3 pagi.. wake at 7 am... Aduhai demam tolonglah berkompromi sikit... This week might be bz week. Coz during this weekend fact ada open day so i am being a contact person. GAI! datang2 ofis x tauk apa nak polah haha

Meluahkan

Lamak dah rasa nya aku x up date blog aku yang cgek tok. Ada banyak benda yang sebenarnya dah beberapa ketika aku x ambik peduli agik. Bukan nya sik nampak ka pa, tapi buat-buat sik nampak bah. My bad :(

As a human, ada masa nya kita akan rasa down glak. Sama lah kedak aku marek. Sik da mood sampei aku x tauk mok beli apa pake pg kursus. Terasa glak aku tok siapa jak? Nak melawan semua yang terbeban d bahu tok. Brapa kuat hati aku untuk menahan semua perkara yang menyakitkan hati, brapa kuat aku untuk sik mempedulikan kata-kata yang mampu buat aku menangis?

Aku ada seorang kawan yang memang rapat dari kecik, tapi nya dah polah mistake bah. Aku sik tauk gne aku mok react dengan situasi mcm ya? Bila tengok macam nek tok cne2 pun dengar one by one dari kawan ku dah ada steady girlfriend or boyfriend, one by one cdak dah mok fly g abroad mok sambung study cnun, one by one cdak dah mok grade. But aku? Wat i get here? Tell me??!!!!!!!!!!

STUCK!

With nothing that i can do here, fighting to get my dip and on the same fighting to do well in my job. Fighting to do well in my life. I hate my self!!!!!!!!!!!!! i hate my self!!! for cant do anything, To my family, to my love one, tell me! apa yang dapat aku polah nek tok?

Dapat x aku habiskan study aku? dapat x aku did well in my job? dapat x aku fight for my baby? dapat x aku fight for our relation can be legal? Fuh!

Esok nak g BTN [Biro tatanegara] aku harap kursus tok membantu aku untuk jadi insan. Wah wah wah insan bah...

Panas ofis hari tok. air cond rosak :( jadi aku pun dah x tauk gik nak tulis otak ku dah melting

my 100 post

I choose to day for my day to launch our official blog... www.babyz00m.blogspot.com. Today is second month-sary baby n i.

i hope that this business will success. I pray for that. Amin... and the most important thing baby and i will always be 1... :D

Us crew

Baby and i was planning to have our own brand for our business. While both of us, interesting in design and photography so we just make it work. And of cause my baby is my BIG boss. :D while i do my part in marketing. I do not say that i am expert in that part but i guess this is the right time i am using my social skill with people. I do not tell my mom about this business yet. Cause we just want to make this work first. YES, we do not expect to much from what we are doing now, but the only thing that we want is we just doing what we are interesting in.

So my peer, if you need our service please let us know, then we will discuss from A to Z together.

Cheers ~