21

its only a number. i know. i still have a lot of things to do in my life... but i know that i have to do this

before apa-apa sekalipun... JANGAN TINGGAL SOLAT EFA...
1. After this i have to manage my time better than before
2. I need to manage my time to my family, my friend, my work, my class, my assignment.
3. I need to go to saloon no matter how busy i am.
4. I need time to relax. [efa give ur brain to rest for a while. you think too much lately]
5. I need to take care more about myself and also care bout my family, my friends, my love one
6. I need to go for a holiday at least once a year.
7. I need save more money
8. I need to go early to work everyday
9. I need to read more books
10. I need to go now haha

esok ke?

I want to be remembered as the girl who could make everyone smile and cheer everyone up even when I was crying inside and couldn't make myself smile n laugh.

Tomorrow is my 21st b'day. I still have a lot of unfulfilled dreams. And i know i still work it out. I'm not a perfect person until now. Promise that i just don not want to be a worse. Spread my love all over the world. That it is. I still young, but always give advices to people older than me. About love. But when it become to myself, huh! no words! haha

Currently, i'm doing my diploma in business management. still 5 more semester to go. Wish that i could buy  WISH someday. Haha

bai + me = photos

terapi muka

 

i'm NOT doing it well

i'm NOT doing well in my final, and i really felt disappointed with it.. :( the worse part is when i know that my health is in BAD condition. i got stomached + dizzy + back pain. Complete in one package. For the third time doing urine test, the result is still bad and one more prob is low blood pressure. Doc asked me to get a good rest. She tell me if this situation continuously happen it easy for me to fain. huh! i'm scared. Seriously i'm scared. If something happen to me, does anyone will concern about me?

I know, i push myself tooooo much lately. Rush to go to work, rush to go to class then back from class i felt so tired then straightly go to sleep. The next day i did the same thing. Since i start my class, i always skip my breakfast and dinner. Sometimes i eat one time per day. i'm not concern about my health. No wonder i got sick. Yes, i have to admit i always ignore when my body warn me. when i feel tired, when i feel stress. I'm crazy! i just want to make sure everything perfect without thinking that i have only one body to care of. As a result here i get. I still can't do it well because i'm SICK during final.SERVE ME!

Menjelang minggu peperiksaan

Yg x pernah-pernah stress pun jadi stress. SERIOUSLY i don't know what happen to me TODAY! wake early but still jwak aher datang ofis.. Mok tauk pahal, sebab kenak iron baju k trn kerja sampei 3 pasang... iron yg pertama rasa x slesa... iron baju yg kedua kedak besar glak.. then i asked bai.. "this baju nampak besar or this is a sign than i loosing weight again?SHIT!!" then after baju yg ke-3 bok lah ok sikit.. punya lah semangat mok trn test.. duhal tek salah hari paper gik ya! Ya Ampun.. macam2 jadi lah...

Turun kerja semua benda ku polah alu semua x jadi.. huh! malas ehhh i'm being so clumsy in the office.. SHIT!!! pa hal tok! makanan rasa x terhadam dengan sempurna. is that call nervous? NO! ya namanya PMS!

i hate this MADNESS feeling