i'm Quit

i talk to my parents about my job n study. i told them i want to get leave for study but the problem is i will not have salaries. But seems my parents said we will get financial problem after that, cause dad need pays 2 cars, 1 motorcycle and mom need to pay our house. But i said that i don't feel satisfied cause my sis is working now. How come she could not help them. She always said that she is a good daughter in front of me by giving my parents money every month. Nahhhh pa gik.. show to us now. I feel that it is totally not fair for me. I need to work and need to go to class while i am only 22nd years old. i got job already. It is not i am quit from my job it just i on leave for study. I want to do well in my study. i love to study. i do not want to go to work. i hate to work. i feel really stress. But then when i think it twice, may be this is what Allah plan for me. Something that i do not plan.

I really want to excel in my study. But honestly i could not give total effort to my study while i am working. I do not why. May be because i live alone. Everything i have to do by my own.

Ya Allah, please help me. Please give me guidance. If this is the BEST way for me, pleas give me strength to do all this. Amin..

Pretending

Selalu nya, manusia akan show off benda yang sebaliknya

Sebagai contoh:

Pasangan kekasih tok, mala jak sama. Kedak belangkas. Sine-sine pg pun sama jak p last last break jwak. Sebab apa. Sebab nya mok bulak dengan dirik sidak ya pun yang cdak ya happy.

Sik pun nya buat-buat happy. tapi sebenarnya dalam hati nya, nya sik happy pun.

Apa lah kesimpulan atas contoh pendek di atas ya tek?

Kesimpulannya, banyak orang yang berpura-pura dalam dunia tok. Eksen-eksen mok nunjuk dengan org p sebenarnya cdak nya hipokrit. sik jujur dengan dirik cdak ya pun. Pahal aku emo? sebab banyak org di sekeliiling aku nek tok macam ya.

Sebab apa cdak mok polah mcm ya sebab cdak takut menghadapi kenyataan. Ya lah sebab nya.

Penilaian

Sesi meluah perasaan yang entah ke berapa kali. Lamak dah ku nyimpan tok. Mala jak sik terluah.

Kenak manusia suka pg judge kita suka ati mak bapak cdak jak? Apa nya pike apa? Cdak ya bagus glak lah? Macam aku kaco hidup cdak. Tapi nang selalu nya lah, orang yang sik kaco hidup orang, orang mesti suka kaco hidup nya. Pa tek cdak nya ya sik puas hati dengan hidup orang lain yang bahagia. Pa jak lah. Emo aku tok eh.

Aku hairan bah, sapa cdak nak menilai orang ya sik bagus?

Kak ya ada gik sesetengah manusia tok yang sik ada pendirian. Tok cgek gik masalah. Kak ya nak, ada gik jumpa orang laki kerja nya main-main kan hati ompuan ajak ajak. Ish ish ish

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