milo panas jam 8 pagi

3Layan na jwak minum milo panas pagi2 weekend tok eh. tengah2 minum ya then aku terpike balit apa d klaka mek 2 remy time dinner hari jumaat ya tek. nya madah aku nampak lain nek tok, kedak lebih happy dari dolok. nya madah perasaan bahagia aku sebab jatuh cinta ya polah aku kedak nampak lain. bila nya madah kedak ya polah aku think twice about it. is really some1 that we love can make us while we knoe that they are not belonging to us?

hrmmmmmmmmmmm well aku rasa aku dapat conclusion dengan conversation mek 2 ya. sebenarnya memang kebanyakkan org hanya menjadi pemerhati dan penilai without think it deeply. so keluar lah mcm2 nonsense conclusion. *apa jak la*

memang aku akui sejak hal aku dengan remy terjadi banyak benda dah berubah dlm hdp aku. bukan lah selepas balit dari sematan seperti yang remy fikirkan. part of it aku sebenarnya bersyukur glak hal aku dengan remy ya terjadi. at least aku kuar dari comfort zone. even masa perkara ya terjadi aku memang kedak org gila jak. everyday jak aku nangis kedak org gila, the worse part is i had tried to hurt myself. *kedak na bunuh dirik jak eh* [hardcore] the reason nya sebab aku x tahan presure n tense masa ya. after semua ya berlalu then bok lah nampak hikmah semua yang berlaku ya then time tok aku rasa bersyukur jwak semua ya berlaku. sebenarnya perkara ya buat aku kuar dari comfort zone bah. maka terciptalah the old efa + new version of efa :D

to be honest i like the new version of me now. because i have the old me n the new me. hampir semua org d sekeliling aku perasan yang aku berubah then they just simply said that i had changed because of im falling in love with some1. yeah part of it i admit it but most part of it i changed my thought about life. well i'm sure that is the major reason y look different now. well guess i deserve all those things beacuse of what i had gone through before. after all presure in 2 months, crying like hell, some part of it i give up with my life so right now bounce from the sadness time. i make a small step by step. then here is me now.

forgive my self n move on. ya yang penting dlm hdp tok. skali kita gugok kita mesti bangkit dan berlari n go for our aim. x kan sampei bila2 pun i blaming myself. blaming ourself for the whole of life wont help anything. this time i can be real me, ada masa untuk life aku yang lain, may be that is y i look more happy, i still can go out for alone, jalan sorang2 n sometimes jus go to cafe alone n have coffe, sit until i want. n sometime i can hang out with my fwens... *maklum ajak banyak glak kawan ;P* lepas klimaks hal aku dengan remy ya i get my self bit by bit n undeniably *he* helps me a lot. listen him while giving me advices, make me felt i made a conversation with my old friend. yeah may be because of he got a lot of experience, n of coz he gave advice to me based on his experience. then semua tok polah ku pike balit, hidup tok yang penting bukan lah kita x pernah polah salah, tapi bila kita polah salah kita betulkan balit semua salah kita then kita move foward bah. "no man is more unhappy than the one who is never in adversity, the greatest affliction of life is never to be afflicted"