Esok dah tahun baru??? FUH!!!

finally today is the last day for 2009... first half of year, i guess i did it pretty well but when came to 2nd half of year! i can say it HELL! i trying hard to make sure my life was well organized cause i did two major thing this time. STUDY + WORK. Honestly it make felt HELL. i felt so tired, cause have to go to work from 8am to 5 pm then rushed to class from 6pm to 9 pm fuh it totally thought me how hard life is actually. I loosed weight from 49kg to 42kg, i skip my breakfast skip my dinner and i only eat when lunch and sometimes i combined breakfast and lunch to make it brunch and after that i only eat at 9 pm if only i take my dinner.

i cry a lot this year, sometimes i feel give up with what i did cause sometimes i asked myself "Why must i have to do all things that man n women in age 25 n above should do while i have to do it all when i am only at 20th?" sometimes i do not felt that i can handle this burden. It is too much for me to settle it by my own.

But i promise to myself i want to change this year, i am no longer a small girl but i am a BIG girl now. :P more responsible to handle. FUH! By the way i will try my best to manage my time, my finance, my life, my studies, my work the BEST i could. i know that i can do it.